#miko vents alot

[mikolaj-paradox]

I actually fucking listened to the entirety of that playlist...

[beepityboopbeep]

║✿║Emotional support headcanons P.4 (GENSHIN IMPACT)║✿║

Summary: Back at it again, with some more of y'all comfort characters, (this is defo going to be a continuous series for me now-), also imposter!Albedo fans come get y'alls juice

Characters: Kokomi, Gorou, Ei, Yae, Itto, Yunjin, Scaramouche, Shenhe, Baizhu

Warnings: References to mental health struggles (depressive mood, eating/sleeping problems, anxiety + panic attacks), subtle lor spoilers for Scaramouches story and a but of speculation in regards to Shenhe and Yunjin

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KOKOMI is always a renowned strategist, keeping herself prepared for everything, therefore her first instinct when she sees you upset is to try and analyze the situation, identify what is wrong and come up with a solution...thankfully her calming demeanor and soft voice make this an oddly soothing experince, soon, you forget why you were even so worked up in the first place.

Despite being a renowned general GOROU is a chronic sweetheart, the second he sees you looking down he's by you side with comforting words of support, ecouragement and plenty of hugs (if you want them).

If you need to escape from it all, RAIDEN EI herself might be more than happy to let you into her plane of Euthymia, there she is more than willing to offer you a form of respite, allowing you to lay your head on her lap and speak of your corncerns. It makes her feel...fulfilled that you are safe and willing to confide in her.

Whilst YAE MIKO may seem rather cold, when she finds you the virge of a breakdown she is quick to whisk you away to a reasonably isolated place near the shrine, allowing you to vent about your feelings as she quietly strokes your hair, eventually allowing you to fall asleep on her shoulder.

ITTO'S usual immature persona drops the second he sees you upset, within an instant, he is quiet as he allows your pains and wounds to be heard, vaildation is the first thing he can think to offer in a time like this

As a performer, YUNJIN is an expert at making others happy, and you realise this as she carefully takes your hand in hers, slowly singing an ancient lullaby as you allow your tears to fall

Of all people, SCARAMOUCHE is the last person you'd expect to silently lend you his shoulder as he holds back tears from his own emotions he can't yet comprehend, but if you're close to him, he can't exactly pretend he doesn't care.

SHENHE is not as good with her words, instead, she makes an attempt to display her support with physical affection, whilst her actions may be...somewhat awkard, there is a genuine sense of heartwarming kindness behind them

BAIZHU understands those dark feelings of pain and despair, both from his own experience as a pharmacist and as a caretaker, so he's ready and willing to listen to your needs and act accordingly when he sees you stumble into his shop an emotional wreck, and no, he won't let you leave until you're better.

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Part 1, Part 2, Part 3,

GENSHIN MASTERLIST

MAIN MASTERLIST

A/N: This may be the last one of these I do for a while until new characters a released, but I want to keep writing these for other fandoms as I know how important comfort characters are to alot of y'all, anyways, hope you guys enjoyed, later lovelies.

[cyverrieee]

Genshin impact |Gamer Au

Archons Version

— Ei

Channel name is probably Raiden Sh0gun

Games genre she plays: Action, Multiplayer, Puzzle, Adventure

Calls her fandom/fans Lightning clouds

A gaming channel

Purple themes duh

Her theme consist of lightning, birds, clouds, stars etc

She mostly plays multiplayer games

Will forced anyone to play with her

Gamer queen

Does "Chill and talk" streams

Will stream at like 8 pm at night

Thoma has to be there when Ei cooks

Doesnt swear (mostly says fudge, heck, frick)

✨Family friendly✨

Loves milk, dango, and any sweets

When she moved into her new apartment, she asked her fans that they can send her anything for decorations for her gaming room and oh my she was touched when there was a literally clay figurine of her and a chibi raiden figurine too

She doesnt spend her money, only about 1k. If shes in dire help then she will maybe

Miko was the one that made her food

9.9/10 would def watch but forget soon

— Zhongli

Channel name will probably be Golden Morax

Game Genre: any

Calls his fandom/fans: Gemstones

His theme probably consist of gems, tea, mountains

Does alot of chill streams

Plays very calming games

Dossnt swear because he believes kids watches him so he wanted to be a good role model for them

Doesnt know how to do politics for being 20+

ASMR collab when they said, Zhongli replied with "I do not know"

Replies with the most heart warming comments

Zhongli made a "Venting stream" once and it became the 3rd most popular streams in his channel

Zhongli does his best to comfort in the venting stream

Big calm man

10/10 would watch but then switch then return

— Venti

Channel name might be Windborn songs (idk)

Game Genres: any

Calls his fandom/fans: Wind spirits

His theme would consist of green, wind, clouds, trees, cottage core?

Makes alot of just talking streams

Made a video about rating wine he tasted from bottom to top (it was a whole 1 hour video)

Does ALOT of drinking streams with Kaeya and Rosaria

Used swear ALOT but when he realized literal 9 year olds watch him he stopped, hes not all bad (he still swears but cuts himself off)

Venti made a stream where you can tell your most biggest troubles and stuff (like zhonglis venting stream) and he would try his best for encouragement and comfort

He was literally so shocked when one of his fans said that "i used to think that drinking was okay when i was 7 years old" i think he got emotionally traumatized

Does alot of youtube shorts with his friends

Everyone needs a venti

100/10 def would watch

— Nahida

Channel name is probably Nahinara because she finds it cute

Game Genres: anything that caught her attention

Calls her fandom/fans: lil leaflets

Her theme would be full of nature and flowers

Does chill streams

Is very very cute and wholesome

Family friendly 100%

Would say "bam bam baam!" As her welcoming phrase

Loves her fans

Has the most haters which makes her sad sometimes

Is in love with chocolate/sweets like Ei

999999/10 would recommend

Thats all i guess <3

[mikolaj-paradox]

Sometimes I listen to music that reminds me of everything I wanted to be.

(Honestly, the entire song works. Just thought these lyrics conveyed the point better)

[mikolaj-paradox]

*sigh* losing my only reason for using this acc.

[mikolaj-paradox]

No! You're not giving away my Grandpa's guns to your boyfriend.

You like to make me feel bad about how I found him and how I'm a failure in his eyes, so ya' know what? I'll be just has fucking petty.

"They're Grandpa's guns, not yours. He would not approve of you giving away his guns to your boyfriend."

Since Grandpa's not here anymore but I am I will keep the legacy i will not let you destroy evreything just because you've gotten fucked real good.

[mikolaj-paradox]

I wanna be the pure, untainted God's shepherd that everybody wants to corrupt.

[mikolaj-paradox]

Beautiful lil recap ya' know?

[mikolaj-paradox]

Who could ever love somebody covered in scars?

Major s/h tw:

Especially those two... I've only got two scars in semblance to people, and I've tried covering the one so many times, but it was deeper than I thought, so it always outshines the ones that cover it. I remember going to the hospital in December they did an anatomy drawing of any unusual marks and i remember seeing the drawing, although they drew a # it's so much diffrent then that, i still see it evreytime I look. And the other is much more shameful. Thank goodness it happened in August, so it was close enough to the colder months so I could cover it. I've always (since 12) avoided visible spots but that one is so visible and still an ugly pink, i should've just came clean about it when it happened so I could've got the stitches, but no i waited til it was not healing properly before I came clean. My left shoulder, my left forearm, and my right thigh all of its tainted... I was perfect like anybody is, but I ruined it, i remember I only started to do it because it was a trend, but then I felt that sweet burn, and it was over it's just another addiction. Yesterday I made it 3 weeks since I fucking sliced and diced my entire fucking thigh I was yet again attempting to cover the one but that doesn't work like that. Sometimes, it appears I have to hurt myself and draw far too much blood in order not to kill myself.

[mikolaj-paradox]

I'm reading a bit of angst and like the concept of not finding life worth living if you lose a best friend over your own actions is just so idk just to close to home ya' know?

I'm unessarily attached to somebody that really i already screwed up evreything with but I was given another chance and I try so hard not to fuck it up again but even a memory of the past could ruin it all.

I've only got one person i even talk to everyday I've fucked evreything up. It seems now that i must've changed for real this time they don't like me anymore, I try not to dwell on the abandonment much anymore because abandonment is just a part of life. It seems now that I'm not manipulative, toxic, and don't get me started on abusive, I'm not wanted anymore. I did this to be better, ya' know? And I thought that that's what they all wanted, but it appears they preferred me at my worst. Sometimes, I get those dark thoughts, and i wonder if it was really worth it in the end if I still have nobody? At least then I had some semblance of a group that revolved around me like I was their sun. I had lovers at my beck and call, friends that would risk everything for me, but now that i, myself, am different, they aren't despite their words acting like they are saints.

[mikolaj-paradox]

No, i don't wanna remember that, I don't wanna remember what he wanted he is horrible, evrey bad thing was disguised in a pretty red bow. He's the devil as so many called him.

[mikolaj-paradox]

Oh, that playlist that I listen to when I hate myself is just too relatable tonight :(

[mikolaj-paradox]

There is go against talking about being an heir. What's next, the God complex?

[mikolaj-paradox]

Remember you might be in technicality the "heir" but I'm the one that didn't leave I'm the one that dealt with the death all you did was fill out a few papers Remember you left, I stayed. You've got a life of your own, one you created and yet somehow despite that all I'm a fucking swine you'd kick? I'm the one that was here when he died I'm the one that found him. Just because you think you deserve evreything and you even had the audacity to sit in his chair, the same chair he died in. YOU THINK YOU DESERVE THIS? you don't need the riches you're already rich as is. I STILL FUCKING LIVE HERE AND YOU WANT TO TAKE IT ALL FROM ME JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE THE HEIR? ONCE YOUR GONE AND MY MOTHER, THE FAMILY IS DEAD YOU MARRIED OFF AND GOT YOUR HAPPY LIL HAPPY ENDING AND LEFT THIS ALL BEHIND. You don't even want the riches for yourself you just want to make it more while you boot out my cousins for one meesly mistake. You don't care about sentimentalist. You wanna up-root everything. You only care about yourself. WHERE'S YOUR SENSE OF PRIDE? That's the problem with growing up rich compared to knowing there's power.

[mikolaj-paradox]

I am so sick of this.

My mother grew up well-off, and my cousin grew up rich. Somehow, despite my lineage, I'm poor? Low-class? This is stupid. I want more; i need more. I am not some fucking bitch that'll just drop at a command. I'm better than that, and yet here, still I am nothing.

[mikolaj-paradox]

Oh fuck. my dad held his ex hostage.... fuckk- i knew he was doing horrible, i knew it in 2021... ITS ALL HER FUCKING FAULT THAT DRAMATIC FUCKING CUNT NO WONDER WHY SHE NEVER GOT CONSIDERED MY STEP MOM NO WONDER WHY EVEN WHEN I WAS GIVEN THE OPTION I STILL CHOSE NOT TO LIVE WITH HER. I THREW AWAY AN ENTIRE LOVER IN THAT I COULDN'T BE MENTALLY THERE FOR A RELATIONSHIP ITS GOD DAMN NOVEMBER FOR GODS SAKE FUCK FUCK FUCK. I REMEMBER THE NIGHT BEFORE HE WENT AWAY I REMEMBER THEIR FIGHTS I REMEMBER IT ALL... I REMEMBER EVRETHING I REMEMBER HURTING OTHERS IN THAT TIME- I COULD SAY I WAS ACTING OUT DUE TO THE HOME LIFE SITUATION BUT GOD FUCKING KNOWS THATS NOT THE ENTIRETY... WHAT HAVE I ALWAYS WANTED? I WANTED CONTROL OVER EVRETHING I WANTED TO DO WHATEVER I WANTED WITHOUT REPERCUSSION. I REMEMBER WHEN MY DAD AND THAT FUCKING CUNT GOT IN A FIGHT NO MATTER WHAT SHE SAYS SHES A FUCKING INSTIGATOR SHE IS NOT SOME INNOCENT ABUSE VICTIM, HE WOULDN'T EVEN HIT HER FOR GODS SAKE HE 'NEEDED' TO HIT HER SO INSTEAD HE OPTED FOR A FUCKING GLASS CABINET I REMEMBER WATCHING IT I REMEMBER THE BLOOD DRIPPING THERE WAS BLOOD GOD DAMN EVREYWHERE. HE JUST GOT OUT LIKE IN MARCH AND NOW HES GOING BACK I MEAN THE CRIME HAPPEND IN OCTOBER AND THE FINAL DECISION PROBABLY WONT BE GIVEN TIL DECEMBER BUT ITS NOVEMBER... ITS NOVEMBER NOW... ITS THE WORST MONTH EVER, ALWAYS HAS BEEN. THE AMOUNT OF SHIT THAT IS ALREADY HAPPENING IS TO MUCH BECAUSE I CAN FEEL ITS NOT OVER YET. I ALREADY KNOW WHATS GONNA FUCKING HAPPEN NEXT AND I CANT DO IT I CANT DO IT ANYMORE... I SHOULD'VE JUST GOT OVER IT ALL IN 2021 THEN I WOULDN'T OF HAD TO DEAL WITH EVREY OTHER YEAR ESPECIALLY EVREY NOVEMBER. IF ANYTHING ELSE HAPPENS I CANT PROMISE WAITING TIL 25 ANYMORE... ITS JUST TO MUCH. I CANT DO IT. I DIDN'T EVEN CAUSE THESE THINGS THIS TIME I DIDN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING THIS TIME AND I THOUGHT MAYBE THIS YEAR WOULD BE DIFFRENT I THOUGHT THAT EVREYTHING FALLING TO PIECES IN NOVEMBER WAS MY FAULT... BUT NO MATTER WHAT IT WILL ALWAYS HAPPEN UNTIL IM GONE I MIGHT ASWELL JUST GET IT OVER WITH AT THIS POINT.

I have no idea the Grammer errors or if this makes sense, and I sure has hell shouldn't post it but what do I have to lose? I'm already losing EVREYTHING what's the harm in some more because of my doing?